Burnout mum

Salam hai, I'm a mother of two under two. Lately ni cepat sgt nk melenting and realize i need to break off. Tapi bila ngadu dkt pasangan...dia bandingkan diri dia lg penat kerja double works..i know im SAHM, buat side bisnes xdpt sustain sbb kekangan handle ank. bila weekend or dia off day, sy minta handle ank skejap pun mengeluh dia nk rehat. Sy nk ambil angin luar rumah pun dia berat nk bg, katanya membazir masa. We're in tight financial, sy ada apply few jobs since sblm ni working mum. But when pergi iv, dpt tahu sy ada ank kecil, terus kena reject. Last workplace sy kerja dlm 2y, resign sbb pasangan kena transfer luar daerah. Im living far from parents..so kdg2 time vc dgn fmly, hilang kejap sedih, hbis vc dtg balik sedih. Knp dlu my late father jaga sy elok2, xde sakit...bila pasangan jaga terus rasa diri ni tak terurus, useless, sakit sana sini. Pnh tpkir bukan2..tp pndg ank2 terus istigfar cpt2 Maaf luahan kat sni..ni pun menaip dgn mata bergenang smbil tidurkn ank. I need support, but seems like nobody care 🙂