Confused
Hi mummies. I just wanna share here and seek your opinions on this issue I have that's probably lingering around me for very long. I got married at the age of 15 and had a baby that is totally taken care of by my ex mil and I rarely get to see my baby..plus my ex mil is very violent and her words hurt so much each time she speaks to me...for 10 yrs I have barely seen my child as he stays over there with her so finally one day I divorced with my hub as we r facing issues. literally like when I wanna c my child, it's always based on her schedule because is either she wanna bring him out or his family occasion or she's mad at me so she doesn't wan me to c him. Anyway, I managed to fight for my child and now I have the custody to him. But because of this issue I had w my ex mil, now that I remarried a yr ago to a very caring and loving hub, I feel that the fear still stays in me. I tried convincing myself that my mil now is a very nice person to us and she'll never treat me like how my ex mil would. I even pray to God and went to temple to let my heart fully open up so that I can remove this fear but somehow it just seems to be only open halfway. My mil now is caring but because we stay at our own place, she is very emo, she will cry and complaint to my hub that she misses her son and try a lot of ways to ask him go back to c her. I'm fine with it but at times I just find it annoying. She will purposely cook dishes that my hub loves to entice him n goes back. & Sometimes my hub will be very soft hearted n goes there to c her. Now she attempts to make us visit her once a month when my fil is on leave. I find it unacceptable becos who really has the time on wkends to visit once a mth when the time left during wkends are so little to do so many things at home or as a family. Of cos now is CB so she gets even more upset. But the point here is that because now that we have a baby, I'm so scared for my baby to be close to my husband's family especially my mil. I can feel the fear is overwhelming me at times. Can someone pls share w me how can I deal w it or is anyone in the same situation as me? I really wish I can make myself feel better. Help.