I know what you mean. Cherish the “remaining days” of just the two of you. Take lots of videos and photos. Tell your firstborn many many I love you. And even if he/she doesn’t understand yet, bring his/her palm to your belly and say together, you two will love the baby. You’re a good mom for having that “guilt”. Maybe prep yourself mentally that you will continue to have a good emotional management when the newborn arrives. Many parents lack patience towards the older kid when situations is stressful.
For me I will feel What's done is done there's no turning back. Sometimes using protection doesn't mean it's 100% effective so if i still managed to fall pregnant it's fated. I won't feel guilty but rather will cherish the 9-10 months with my first born
Im in the same situation, and I have the same feeling. Trying to pull myself back and still trying. Guilt for the elder one and also for the little one that I have such a thought...
pls dont b... there r always pros & cons 🫶