rant

Minsan naiisip ko sana di na lng ganito ung sitwasyon ko. Lugar na kung saan wala kang mapagsabihan. Lugar na wala kang karapatan. Kasi inampon ka lng. I should be grateful sa lahat ng meron ako but I still question what if kasama ko yung totoo kong pamilya would it be different? I don't know. Akala ko pamilya yung malalapitan ko kapag may problema ako but then do i really have someone to trust? O baka ako yung problema. I don't know. God knows I tried. I did my best not to disappoint them. Or maybe God is disappointed too. Ewan ko na. I hope there's answers. Kasi parang lahat nang nakakausap ko turns out nadadamay lang sila. And i think that's the answer to my question. The problem is me. ?? I'm so sick of me. Nakakapagod din pala.