Anxiety on giving birth :(

Me too! I have the exact same anxiety as well. I have low tolerance pain too. I’ve got to be honest, contractions hurt like hell for me. And it only gets worse as the hour goes by. I started feeling menses-like cramps on the morning of the day before my EDD. After that the pain was a totally different kind of pain that you’ve never experienced before as a woman. So I knew this had to be it. It came and go from morning till night and you got to time your contractions too. I didn’t take any pain reliever whatsoever. Just lie down and keep switching sides when then pain came. Practice deep breathing now. You’ll need it if you don’t want to take epidural. I didn’t want to feel any more of the painful contractions so I took epidural and I couldn’t push at all as my legs were super numb. Bear in mind when you’re already 10cm dilated and it’s time to push, they WILL lower the epidural dosage to the point where you can feel all the contractions again. I felt it only this time it was much much more painful than I had remembered before the epidural. In the end, after 10hrs of labour and “empty pushes”, I was wheeled in for emergency c-sect as my baby was still high up even after I was fully dilated. So I didn’t manage to feel the pain of giving birth naturally but recovery period after a c-sect is so much more difficult than normal delivery. However both doesn’t make you less of a mother. So practice deep breathing and remind yourself in the delivery suite, this will be over soon and it will be worth every pain.