i choose to m4sturbate...

I choose to masturbate while watching adult films because my husband cannot satisfy me emotionally.... Every time I invite him to have sex, he falls asleep immediately. When I ask him why or what the reason is, he has no answer. My husband doesn’t have any illnesses, nor is he cheating since he always comes home from work on time.... If I say he’s tired, I don’t know how tired he is. When asked, he just says whether he wants it or not. I’ve tried buying lingerie and taking care of my body, but my husband is indifferent. He says, 'What’s the point of all that?' 😊 It feels hurtful, doesn’t it?