Breastfeeding

I am so burned-out of bfeeding now that my bibi is turning 16months old. Last time umalis aq the whole day ndi q sya napadede tpos tinetrain q na sa bote pro ang effect ngkalump yung dede q, kla q tuloy may bukol but its just milk. I got clogged milk, i dont know why ayaw nman mapump. Super sakit ilang days din bago nawala. Then last time din ngkacrack nman nipple q dahil pinuwersa q ipump dhl nga i need to let it out bka mgkabukol nnman at ayun ngkacrack nipple aq, sobrang skit feeling parang mapuputulan nq nipple ung pain lalo pag ngfeed si bibi. I was in tears. At ang hirap tuwing gabi unli feeding si bibi. Kea sleepless night aq madalas. I know breastmilk is best for babies upto two years but I feel I can't do this anymore. I wish my milk supply will dry up. Anyone here experiencing this too? Do you feel me? Masama na ba aq na gusto qng magstop ng magbreastfeed? ??