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A Letter from My Heart 🩵

To my parents and to the father of my child, These days, I carry a heaviness inside me that’s difficult to explain. You are the people I love most, and yet it is because of you that I feel this overwhelming sadness in my heart. I want to be angry, but I can’t. Because the truth is, I love you deeply, and no amount of misunderstanding can ever change that. I know I’m far from perfect. I’ve made mistakes, and I’m still learning. But right now, everything feels so heavy and confusing. My mind is a mess, and my heart is even more so. With everything happening in my life, especially in this new chapter I’m about to face, I need you more than ever. Yet somehow, I feel so far away from you, because of the hurt I’ve been carrying inside. To my parents, I know I’ve disappointed you. I know I’ve caused pain, and that pain never leaves my heart. I feel your concern for me, and I know you only want the best. But sometimes the words you say, even if they come from love, cut me deeply. I’m sorry if I seem distant, and if it looks like I’ve hardened my heart. Truth is, this is just the only way I know how to look strong, so I won’t bother you with my burdens. But if you only knew how much I long for your comfort, for your embrace. I miss the feeling of being cared for. I am so tired, and all I want is to feel safe in your love again. Please forgive me if I’m not able to say this out loud. I need you, now more than ever. To the father of my child, If you only knew how much I love you and how much joy it brings me to carry the child we once dreamed of. I still remember how happy we were, imagining this future together, becoming parents, raising a child, building a life. But now, that joy is mixed with sorrow. Not because I don’t want this child, but because you’re not here the way I need you to be. Yes, you are physically present, but something between us has changed. And that’s what hurts the most. I feel like I’m facing this dream alone, something we once promised to do side by side. I want to blame you for the pain, I want to be angry at you for leaving me emotionally when I need your presence the most. But even in all that, I still wish for us to find our way back to peace. I pray that in time, I find healing, for the pain I feel, and for the distance that now exists between me and the people I hold dear. I hope the day will come when all this bitterness fades, when my heart can fully forgive, and when love can take its place again. Despite it all, I remain hopeful. I believe that things can still turn around, and that someday, we will all understand each other better. I pray for strength, not only for me but for all of us. Because soon, a little soul will come into this world, and I want to welcome that child with joy, love, and peace in my heart. I may be struggling now, but I am choosing to move forward with faith. I will keep hoping for better days, for reconciliation, for forgiveness, and for a brighter tomorrow. 🌻

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Breaking the Cycle with Love 🩵

I grew up hearing negative words from my mother, and even now, I still remember them. I never heard sincere compliments, only harsh complaints. Now that I’m a grown woman, I’ve come to realize that the problem was never truly me. She introduced me to a false version of myself, and it made me question my own worth. I went through a lot of emotional pain because of it. But I’ve worked hard to heal, to overcome, and to remind myself that I am more than what she made me believe. I’ve come to understand that her words were a reflection of her own personal insecurities, burdens she couldn’t carry, so she projected them onto me. Honestly, it hurt to be treated that way. But I chose to rise above it and be the bigger person. She’s human, she’s not perfect, and she’s still my mother. So I choose to forgive her and love her unconditionally. Now that I’m about to become a mother myself, I admit I’m afraid. I worry about how I’ll raise my child in the best way possible. I don’t want my child to grow up with the same painful experiences I had. While those hardships made me stronger, I never want my child to be hurt by me, especially not by the very person meant to protect and love them the most. I want to be my child’s safe place. I want them to run to me when something’s wrong, and face life with me by their side. I want them to feel deeply loved and valued, to know they always have someone on their side, no matter what life brings. As I carry the weight of my past, I also carry the hope for a better future, for myself and for my child. I may not have received the kind of love I longed for growing up, but I now have the chance to give it fully, freely, and without condition. I am choosing healing over hurt, love over resentment, and growth over pain. This is how the cycle ends, with me. And this is how a new story begins, with love. 🌻

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