post partum depresion

I remember the day na nanganak ako. I was totally emotionally and mentally depressed kasi iniisip ko, Hindi ako marunong mag karga ng baby even though im trying lagi naiiyak ako bigla kasi its not like sa napapanood ko na kapag hawak nila anak nila tumatahan si baby kasi naririnig ang heartbeat nila. Its not like mine 😞 Ang nag alaga kay baby ko is my mother in law. I was totally disappointed to myself back then and having a mixed emotions. I was focusing in my breastmilk too pero walang nalabas before. I drank Malunggay juice,soup or even its capsule pero wala pa rin lahat ng tips and advices tinake ko na but wala pa rin lumabas at umiyak nanaman ako. so i have no choice kaya nag formula si baby inside the hospital ng patago para hindi na sya umiyak naawa kasi ako. after awhile we went home. There is no changes. Wala pa rin akong gatas, ayaw sumama sakin ng anak ko plus na environment that we have in our place and the people around me. in that case, Medyo normal pa naman ang pag iisip ko. Sa tuwing nakikita ko si baby hindu ako nawawalan ng pag asa because with the help of my hubby. 4 months akong may PPD medyo gumigive up nanga si hubby nung 3 and a half months ng PPD ko. Siguro hidi nya na kinakaya nag aalaga na nga sya ng baby pati ba naman ako papasanin niya. I went to my ob para mag pa advice, Ang davice sakin is, Good sleep, bed rest and clear up my mind etc,. By the help of my loved ones. I try to put god first in my center of attraction and I let get lead me to te right path. And so, After I diagnose to mental health and PPD okay na ako ngayon.