How u discipline your kids

Here! My 17 month old is starting to run away whenever I want to milk her or change her diapers or shower her. Sometimes she’ll suck on the teat but not the milk. And she’ll throw tantrum whenever she’s tired or sleepy. Lately I noticed she’s more clingy to her dad when he’s around. Sometimes when she throws tantrum, I will just ignore. Ignore until she calls me or come to me. I have days when I’m in a rage and throw my anger at her because I’m tired and those days will always fall during her nap time. I will shake her body and scream at her then I’ll cry. Then I just push her away. It’s hard, trust me I know. Right away I’ll feel guilty and hug her because she’ll pull me or come to me asking to be carried while crying, I just can’t when she does that. I’ll just practice patience, deep breathing, silent prayers and clench my jaw if I’m still mad. Most of the time I will clench my jaw and ignore for a minute so that I don’t have an outburst and smack her and then regret it. I don’t want her to follow my actions when I’m angry. So I always remind myself to set a good example even when my head is about to burst.