Cheer Me Up?

Hello, mommies. Gusto ko lang maglabas ng feelings ko dito. I’ve been with my partner for 4 years now. We have always been in a “healthy” relationship naman. Kaso, by the end of 2022, we “grew” apart. Ang daming naganap sa buhay namin. Hindi ko na lang siguro ididisclose pero it affected us emotionally, mentally, and physically. Before we confirmed my pregnancy, nagkakaroon na kami ng conversations about our “disconnect.” And then boom, baby is confirmed. Kaya nahihirapan ako ngayon — carrying a baby while trying to hold on to our relationship. Ang hirap kasi I love my partner kaso siya yung mas nakakaramdam ng “disconnect” sa amin. Gusto ko maging positive para kay baby pero merong days na hindi ko kaya. Hindi kami live in kaya naman most of the time, ako lang mag-isa. I find myself staring outside the window — ang daming what ifs? By the end of my pregnancy, nandito pa rin kaya siya? Kaninong last name ibibigay ko kay baby? What if… Share ko lang, mommies. Just a way to release this sadness. Thank you! #firsttimemom