What to do?

Hello po, I have the same sentiments when I found that I am pregnant with my 3rd child na 11 months palang yung baby ko, bali 1 week nalang mag 1 year old na sya at dun ko nalaman na I am pregnant. Kasi delayed2 na ako since I breastfeed my 2nd baby. For history I had my 1st baby nong 2021, but he died kasi super preemie pa 26 weeks. I got pregnant with my 2nd, 10 months postpartum, then ngayon pregnant ulit almost 12months postpartum. At first I cried kasi I want to enjoy my 2nd baby pa na sya palang muna yung baby kasi I am not ready for another child and planning na din to go back to work. I took me 3 weeks to process. I dont want to feeo my unborn child na unwanted siya, kaya I processed muna bago sabihin sa iba, I went to my OB, and she said okay lang naman daw na sunod2 since wala naman complications kasi na fullterm ko yung 2nd and via NSD.I settled for a thought na, maybe the baby is given to us in an unexpected time kasi I was planning na di na sundan kasi nga the process of getting pregnant is hard but having a baby is a joy to me. Yung process lang talaga. It was late conception tho kasi patapos na fertile days nakahabol lang yung sperm so maybe it is really meant for me/us. I settled also sa idea na tama na sundan kasi mahirap yung only child lang, walang kalaro yung baby ko, at maganda yung closer gap kasi almost sabay lang yung growth nila at isang byahi lang sa pag aalaga. Maganda din ang relationship kapag closer gap, though di lahat but may advantage talaga sa sibling relationship kapag malapit lang ang gap at ang hardwork ng parents to take care of babies ay hindi back to zero kasi familiar pa sa mga dapat gawin. May nag comment na "If ayaw mabuntis dapat nag contraceptives" tama naman but wala silang right to invalidate your feelings kasi hindi porket may contraceptives totally safe for unwanted pregnancies may mga discrepancies naman talaga sa contraceptives kaya wag mo nalang pansinsinin. Slowly you will accept and embrace it mommy. It will a challenge for you but again its a season it will pass and someday you will appreciate the age gap kasi nag thrive ka. By the way I am 18W6D pregnant almost halfway thru 3rd pregnancy, super fast lang ng araw ngayon kaya, take a deep breath, process things, your body can handle it. God bless po. sabi pala ng OB ko as long as walang complications sa previous pregnancy getting pregnant early after a previous one is safe naman po.