Battling through depression?

Dear Fareena, I've been your silent follower ever since I read about your labour story here, right in this app itself before it was deleted. I can't help but feel like I wanna hug you even though we do not know each other at all. It's easy for me to say but know that this is all Allah's will. I honestly feel that your baby is so beautiful, Masha Allah. So, so beautiful. Whenever I see your IG story on her, I will smile. Dear Fareena, mothers are often portray as a strong human being, from strength to heart. They also say mothers are superwoman but they do not know that we are just a normal human being, we break down too but we always stand up tall and most times we mothers hate when people see our tears. We cry in silence but will always put up a happy face in front of others. No one knows what we've been through unless they walk in the same shoe. Dear Fareena, what you're experiencing is anxiety disorder. Depression is much more than that. I was diagnosed with anxiety disorder years ago and am still battling it + I've had very bad panic attack many times. Anxiety made me shun other humans. I overthink. I hate being with other people, with strangers or in a crowd. I hate family gatherings. I feel suffocated. I hate when people think bad about me or talk bad about me. I will sleep off my mind whenever I feel tired of the world. This always works for me! I've had many episodes of panic attack at home and even in public which made me drop to the floor, trembling and crying and hyperventilating. I felt as though I was about to die. Also happens while in A&E and the nurses had to calm me down. I hate when that happens cos it's painful mentally. And whenever that happens at home, I will try to run to my husband or call him for a tight hug because he made me feel safe. I thought that was it. I was tired of it. I was tired of the 'pain'. I was tired of having to take my medication (I was on a long term medication for my anxiety disorder). And then someone recommended me to recite Surah Al Insyirah. Masha Allah it works like magic! You've got to try it! Helps you to calm down instantly. I've not had anymore episodes of panic attack or anxiety. I keep myself busy. I bake at home. I watch comedies (Running Man is my fav). Go out see the greens. Just make my mind busy as possible so it will not trigger anything. I do not have any close friends just friends that I talk to in whatsapp group. I always feel lonely but that does not mean I cannot be happy. Your beautiful baby needs you, yes so try to fight it as much as possible. It's really easy for me to say this but keep fighting! Try to recite the surah I said above. And tell yourself this is all a test from Him. Your ticket to Jannah. Inshaa Allah.

Hi Fareena, I’m your silent follower too! I’m sorry you have to go through this challenging time of raising your little one. I wish I could tell you that things will pick up and it will only get better. Sigh. They say kids are your rezeki and amanah. Just know that youre doing an incredibly amazing job at caring for your precious little one. She’s really Allah’s greatest gift and your express ticket to jannah. I’m sure many of us feel the same way. Just know that you’re one helluva strong tough cookie. Sending you lots of virtual hugs 💛💚💜.

Hi mummy, I’m so sorry to hear about what you, your baby and your family have been going through. You are so brave and so selfless. Sorry that I don have much to offer. I was battling with depression for a few years and after gave birth, I suspect my mental got worse so I actually called joyful parenting and breastfeeding. At that moment I felt I needed a place to vent without worrying. So if you ever needed listening ear, hope this will help. Please look after yourself too k, even if is just 5mins a day, at least is a start.❤️

hi mum, i can feel its very hard on you and your family. you must be feeling very suffocated and exhausted from taking care of your child. sometimes all u need is a listening ear to make you feel better. try journalism, or u may call sos just for a chat and release of your internal stress. this will help u to vent the pain and stress u have accumulated thus far. take things day by day and avoid getting overwhelmed. I know its hard on you but people out there care for you 🥰 deep hugs ❤

Nobody will know how you are feeling cause only you know how bad it is. My dear stay strong not only for urself but for your family n your daughter that needs you. If you can try n see if you can hire helper to help so that you can also work full time with your husband to sustain financially. Your mum can be the main caretaker for your daughter n your helper can help ease your household load. I will keep u in my prayer my dear. take care and remember this bad times will pass.

May allah ease all your affairs.. May he grant you jannah after all the hardships you went thru with sabar... May this hardship of yours brings you even closer to him... Stay STRONGER babe! Insya Allah all will be fine... ❤

Hugs sister..May Allah ease everything for you, your little girl and your family. Know that you are stronger with Allah's grace , your little girl need you no matter what, you are her strength and comfort. Stay strong and keep the faith.

Dont give up mummy. Stay strong and positive. Your baby girl will be healthy and fine too!

Hi mummy hang in there! Don’t worry!! We are here with u