Until when we'll be like this?

I WOKE UP AND STARING AT THE CEILING FEELING ANXIOUS. KEEP ON PRAYING AND HOPING THAT ONE DAY WE CAN GO TO NORMALCY. YES, I APPRECIATE SMALL THINGS AND SOMEHOW MAKES ME HAPPY, COMPLETE FAMILY? OF COURSE THAT IS A SUCCESS! I AM THANKFUL FOR THAT. THESE PAST FEW DAYS I AM FEELING NOSTALGIC AND SEEING CERTAIN COUNTRIS QUITE BACK TO NORMAL. ALL I WANT IS TO GIVE MY SON A NORMAL LIFE WHERE HE CAN GO OUT AND STROLL AROUND, BUT HOW? WE ARE SCARED, HOW LONG TO ENDURE THIS KIND OF SITUATION? TBH IT AFFECTS MY ABILITY TO WORK MY ASS!