NEED ADVICE

believe or not mamsh, Im about to commit suicide in early pregnancy. as in nawala yung faith ko kay Lord, bakit ako, bakit saken, saan ako nagkamali? hindi na ko nag church, unlike before na every sunday ... laman lang naman ng prayers ko work and buo and masayang pamilya, in the near future ... pero, since day 1 of pregnancy, alam ko na magiging single mom ako 12w transv, nung nakita ko sa monitor na may fetus na nga sa loob ko. naiyak ako (masakit kase yung device na pinasok hahahahaha) naramdaman ko how blessed I am, ang healthy daw ni bebe, and likot. to think na 12w na ko, wala pa kong tinetake na vitamins and milk, even pampakapit, to think na two types pa advice ni doc then twice a day. I feel blessed that moment, mahina ang kapit ni bebe based kay OB, pero hindi sya nawala. I realised na hindi lahat ng babae bini bless para magkabebe and I believed that all the rights of women, the greatest is to be a mother. Since then, mas inalagan ko si bebe. I thank Lord, everyday, Im experiencing His miracle, A Life Inside Me ❤ 19w1d firstime preggy here.