mental illness

Seek professional help first. Baka part of you is scared lang or maybe because of your anxiety. I'm not going to judge you cause it's your body and life, thus your choice. Abortion isn't legal in this country so if you're really determined to do that, you have to travel to countries like Thailand, for example. I just hope before you do that, you're really sure and you know the consequences of your action. Nevertheless, ask for professional help first and don't do things without thinking thoroughly.