Depression/Suicidal

I have 2 under 2. Felt mentally,emotional, physically exhausted. The fact that i just moved in means on top of taking care babies alone without parents / in law help, i need to cook and tidy up the house. Want husband to help but he have been getting little rest, and when he shared to his friend he slept late after reaching home, his friend are shock. And that comments make me think i have burden him. Child get sick back to back for four months, idk if from playgrp or its because im a useless mom that doesnt kmow how to take care of babies or useless mom that doesnt know how to keep the house clean. Newborn often get sick when the toddler is sick. Eversince the newborn got sick, i scared to give breastmilk because i afraid she got dehydrated because she will get tired to suck while sick so i give formula. Then after back to back sick, she got constipated, so struggling with my breastmilk , i wake up evwry 1 to 2 hr to makesure she drink so she is well hydrated still yet get constipated. On top of struggling to try to help newborn every hour, milk keeps drop due to sleep deprive, thoughts of messy house, playing with toddler, cooking. And i hate all the negative comment thats was thrown to me like im useless mom useless wife , whereby ive tried my best to take care of everything despite lacking of sleep eating and all. I just feel like giving up

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Are you the mummy who posted something similar but regarding bm? If yes, please do give them bm while they are sick, the antibodies in our bm will help them instead. Does your household income & space allows for a helper? If so, can consider getting one so she can at least help you offload household chores and help with kids when they are sick. It’s very normal for kids to get sick in school, it also helps them build up their immune system so please don’t put the blame on yourself. You are doing a good job trying to provide whatever you can for both your kids. You didn’t leave your kids, you are still providing and caring for them despite your overly exhausted body and soul. You are a great mom and nobody have the right to put you down by their words because they are not going thru what you’re going thru daily. Ignore the negative comments, distant from them if you need to. If travelling is not an issue for you (I’m not sure where you stay), can check out thefuncove on Instagram, I always drop my lo there when I need to run errands or have a break doing nothing. Go for self love and me time, take a break. You deserve all the pamper you need! Drop the kids off for a few hours and enjoy, eat what you love. Just remember you are a wonderful and strong mom! You will get thru this! 💪🏻

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