Trying again

I had miscarriage twice. Currently 38 weeks pregnant and still scared. But a gynae once told me, if its meant to be, its meant to be, and experiencing miscarriage is never our fault, take it as if the baby is not growing well or is sick hence our body rejected it. With current pregnancy i even waited until 10 weeks plus to visit a doctor just because I dont want to have to go through early checks and be disappointed again and again. Its a pain and worry that we cant control, trust our body to do the right thing for us, it went through alot for us mummies😇