Failed VBAC

I had my CS delivery sa first born ko and after 18 months, I had my VBAC with my second baby Kaya Lang nagka-sepsis ung baby ko kaya nmatay siya after 3weeks. Dahil sa trauma, 13 yrs muna lumipas bago nkapag-decide kming mag-asawa na magka-baby ulit and since nakapag-VBAC ako I decided to have it again kasi naisip ko kaya ko nman pala mag-VBAC. Naghanap ako ng VBAC advocate at tlgang nagpa-alaga ako. Kumpleto sa check up, vaccines, lab tests at vitamins. Normal lahat ng lab tests. BUT of all those plans and preparations, still God has His own will. To make it shorter, I end up into a CS delivery. Pinili ko ma-CS nalang kesa malagay sa alanganin ang baby ko. 1 month and 28 days na ang LO ko. Healthy and happy baby.