I am on full terms now, going 37 weeks. I am so worry about everything. I scared that I can't handle this big responsible worry that I will not do well. I am scared of labour pain and going under knife(c-section). I don't know how to deal with the fear I am having. I even tell my husband that I wish my baby can be in my tummy don't come out. He reply you are so uncomfortable why not faster have him out and you will be more relax. I say I rather have all the hips/bone ache and sleepless night and frequently urine lo. The unknown labour pain is the one that I am so afraid of. I become very emo and wondering why only the women have to been through all this and not the husband. They still can say nvm don't worry, not pain, no need scared. Then why not they go through it also with us. Experience the pain and changes we have. I am so sad and even keep crying like a scary cat. My husband say I should not think too much. But I am the one going through all this sure will think alot.

I too was a c sect mum and a FTM as well, honestly I didn't feel a single thing even though it was an emergency c sect cause water bag burst 19 days before my scheduled c sect. No labour pain also. Everything was over in 4 hours, incl taking a shower, pack my hospital bag slowly, wait for hubby to rush back from ofc. I was already overwhelmed when we were at the hospital waiting to be checked, changed, wheeled in. Thank god for the wonderful team at Mt A, everything was beautifully done. No pain, just pure happiness, especially when I first held my baby and said hi. Talking about the future worries, I had plenty. Everyday before I gave birth I worried about parenting issues, financial issues, relationship with in laws and husband issues, whether I should go back to work, trying to be positive, everything I worry about or planned, was different after birth, some good some bad. I think most importantly, have faith and trust that you will be a good mummy, and a wife, and enjoy the rest of the journey.