Am I selfish?
As my bb grows older, my in laws have been dropping hints they want to bring her out when she is older or take care of her. However, I am against it unless my husband is there with her. I just don’t trust them enough. There’s many reasons for me to be feeling this way. To name a few, my in laws make fun of my baby’s name, my in laws always pass comments that are negative to my baby such as she is a crybaby and even bad comments to me and my mil likes to run her mouth like of all the things she could say to a baby she choose to say shit things? I did have several arguments with my husband about how he should manage his mother. And he did all he can but his mother head is harder than a rock. Im not surprised if my husband ever tell her off she would cut off ties with him lol. Anyway, aside from all of that my mil don’t listen to me when I tell her to pass me the baby back when my baby clearly don’t want her, or when I tell my mil things to take note of when handling the bb like how my bb likes to be carried and all. Im not being controlling but my mil really thinks she know it all. Im the one who take care of my baby of course I know and I wouldn’t ask her to do it in a certain way if my baby is fine? But my baby is hysterically crying. From the day I gave birth to this very day, she make me feel miserable. I also know she will go against whatever my husband and I tell her if we leave our baby there. My baby has eczema so oats and rice are not recommended to be fed as of now. My MIL thinks she is a doctor and thinks my baby can be fed that. I always have to tell her many times DON’T DO THIS AND THAT. Trust me I respect my in laws, never once raised voice whatsoever, I always end up crying after I meet them , but I feel like I tolerated way too much. I can only hold in so much. The only reason I am still seeing her is because I pity my husband. He told her off many times nicely, but she is stubborn as heck. Anyway, this is just a rant. I hate how before I was pregnant and was pregnant, she kinda left me alone but after baby comes out she becomes nosy. Actually, when it took my husband and I some time to have our baby, she passed comment on how I should fix myself to get pregnant lol. Anyway, also my in laws see my daughter as a product to show off. Post my baby face here and there without asking. Want to bring her out and take care of her when she is bigger. They only want her when its convenient for them. They did nothing to support me and my husband after I gave birth. Only give me depression. Hate is a strong word but I think I have finally hate them.
