Breastfeeding qualms

Anybody else facing issues with breastfeeding similar like mine? Currently 4weeks pp and I'm getting kind of tired(mentally & physically)keeping up with the pumping schedule & latching at the same time. Adding on to the issue that I'm a low supply mum as well. Only able to yield 30ml from both breasts in 1 session. People say that the milk will kick in eventually and I have been eating lactating cookies, lactating tea, milk boosters, drinking 2l of water but doesn't seem to boost milk much. Also spending all that money to boost my milk ultimately is way more than just buying formula. Which is kind of counter productive for me because at the end of it my bmilk is still so little, haha. I've been latching bb on demand but still topping up with formula because she will cry after every session. And she will cry murder. Doesn't help that bb still can't latch well so I'll have pain/soreness/cracked/bleeding nips after latching her 😮‍💨 (Yes, I've apply nipple cream before after bf) People around me have been questioning why my bmilk is not much and I don't know how to answer that? Maybe you can ask my boobs or something? Such a sucky feeling knowing my friend is able to yield 150ml per pump session just 2days pp. I just want to cry knowing this. I hate that breastfeeding is put on such a high pedestal in the society such that if you as a mum is not able to do it, you will be seen as a failure. Hais. Maybe I'm just exhausted and need 24 hour sleep to shake off this feeling. #firstbaby #justranting #postpartum

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I went through the same situation as you, and at 4weeks PP, I decided to give up on breastfeeding. It was causing me alot of stress, to the extent that I was constantly having high BP. Before giving birth, I had a plan - which was to total breastfeed. I read up on breastfeeding, went for childbirth courses, bought breast pumps, milk storage bags, etc. After bb was delivered, I struggled hard with breastfeeding. Having constant thoughts on why I don’t have enough milk supply, engaged 2 different lactation consultant, stressing over people’s comment. I was sensitive over every comment that ppl made, such as “can afford to gain more weight”, “doesn’t seem to grow much” At that point of time, I was combination-feeding. I felt that I was obsessed with the idea of breastfeeding, and wanted to make it work no matter what. My LO milk intake started to increase, and she started to fuss whenever I breastfeed her - perhaps due to slow flow/low milk supply. It honestly pains me to see that, even more than the fact that I couldn’t fully breastfeed her. After making peace with myself, and deciding to stop, I’ve never been happier. I felt that I’m able to do more and spend more time with my LO. I hope you have the strength to get through this. ❤️

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3y ago

Thank you so much for sharing your experience. This definitely made me feel better than before 🙏🏻 Can I find out how did you drop the pump sessions? Was it done gradually or abruptly. I was thinking of switching to just latching on demand instead. But afraid would get engorged from not pumping

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