Breastfeeding qualms

Anybody else facing issues with breastfeeding similar like mine? Currently 4weeks pp and I'm getting kind of tired(mentally & physically)keeping up with the pumping schedule & latching at the same time. Adding on to the issue that I'm a low supply mum as well. Only able to yield 30ml from both breasts in 1 session. People say that the milk will kick in eventually and I have been eating lactating cookies, lactating tea, milk boosters, drinking 2l of water but doesn't seem to boost milk much. Also spending all that money to boost my milk ultimately is way more than just buying formula. Which is kind of counter productive for me because at the end of it my bmilk is still so little, haha. I've been latching bb on demand but still topping up with formula because she will cry after every session. And she will cry murder. Doesn't help that bb still can't latch well so I'll have pain/soreness/cracked/bleeding nips after latching her 😮‍💨 (Yes, I've apply nipple cream before after bf) People around me have been questioning why my bmilk is not much and I don't know how to answer that? Maybe you can ask my boobs or something? Such a sucky feeling knowing my friend is able to yield 150ml per pump session just 2days pp. I just want to cry knowing this. I hate that breastfeeding is put on such a high pedestal in the society such that if you as a mum is not able to do it, you will be seen as a failure. Hais. Maybe I'm just exhausted and need 24 hour sleep to shake off this feeling. #firstbaby #justranting #postpartum

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hi mummy, I'm going through the EXACT same experience as you are (except that my LO has a good latch but still, I only managed 30ml from both breasts after 1 session of 20mins). I'm approaching 3 weeks PP and 2 days ago, I've decided to give up on breastfeeding because it's causing me too much stress (crying almost every day and I've tried everything: from power pumping, pump after latching, breast massage, to lactation cookies, to 2 nuts guys etc 👉 nothing works) the turning point: the harder I try to increase my milk supply 👉 the more desperation & stress I felt 👉 the more I don't want to take care or be near to my baby (my resentment towards this new journey grows). That is something that worries and scares me. I love my LO but breastfeeding is causing me all the stress & negative thoughts and feelings, so I choose formula-fed. My LO needs me, so I need to take care of myself in order to be there for him, so I choose my sanity (having enough sleep, mental & emotional health). Fed is best. Others can say or ask whatever they want, but this is your child. and your child needs you, so do what's best for you, so you can be there for your child. You don't need validation from anyone else, even if they are family. hope my experience will be of some support to you :) giving up breastfeeding doesn’t make you less of a mum. You are doing great! take care 🧡

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2y ago

Hi Mummy, thank you for this, I really resonate with what you've mentioned. Especially the resentment towards baby 😭 Can I know how how did you stop the pumping sessions? Did you do it gradually or immediately. I'm afraid of getting engorged if I stop the pumping session abruptly. I'm going to proceed with just latching on demand instead.

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