Delivering at 36 weeks plus

This is my 4th pregnancy and this time round im on a high risk (im 41y/o and having hypentension), doctor advised to deliver just next tuesday. Im on 36 weeks plus now. I felt so bad having to deliver my baby at borderline premature but I couldnt do anything as this is for the safety of my baby and me. The thoughts of delivering my baby not on a full term makes me so hurt and i've been crying. Do any of you had this experience and how u deal with it? Plus im intending to take a single bed but worried baby might need to stay longer in hospital