TTC but hubby's not on the same page ?

hi there, need advice po. 1st time TTC here pero 14 yrs na kami ng husband ko. Low count xa and pinagbawalan manigarilyo at uminom pero nakakasama ng looob kasi paminsan minsan, di naman xa naglalasing pero pag niyayaya xa na uminom, iinom xa 1 bottle of beer. After all the injections and mahal ng nasa ganitong journey pero parang pakiramdam ko we're not on the same page, minsan nakikita ko na gusto na talaga nya kaming magkaanak pero bakit di xa makaiwas, anyone here na same situation as me. So, dissapointing...