Normal ke tak rasa excited about getting pregnant?

Mungkin ini agak sensitif for some people, saya minta maaf.. but i really want to ask... Is it normal tak rasa excited about having a baby? Deep down rasa risau nak jadi ibu. Ada masa termenung sekejap. Rasa macam semuanya tak ready, mentally, financially. Kadang² sedih bila ada rasa macam ni. Yes, I want a baby one day. Tapi tak pernah merancang bila nak ada baby. Bila dapat tahu pregnant, tak tahu nak rasa apa. Is it normal? Deep down, I'm just afraid I can't be a good mother. Sebab saya bukan jenis pandai express my feelings. Even if there's any other good news, saya tak reti nak excited macam orang lain. I be like "oh ok." #firsttimemom