Shamed for breastfeeding

Hi moms! Im currently breastfeeding my child cos it’s the only form of feed I am used to. My baby is 4 months now and is still direct latching. She has attended infant care since 2 months and takes less than 50ml per feed in school. She goes to school from 8-2 at most, so I’m not very worried if she doesn’t drink in school since she’s there for a while. I only knew how to breastfeed her since I was alone ever since I gave birth to her. I had no form of help, hence, giving my baby breasts was the easiest. She’s growing rather small and slow, 4 months and she’s only 5.2kg. She was born 2.4kg but I feel at ease that she’s growing. Im sad because my mom has been pressuring me to stop breastfeeding her reason being she doesn’t know how to “hold” a bottle on her own or doesn’t know how to open her fingers up to hold things. It seems like a huge issue to my mom that my baby isn’t able to hold a bottle on her at 4 months since her son (my elder brother who’s 30 now) was able to do it when he was 4 months. Im upset because I have no idea how to stop my baby from breastfeeding. Im upset because my baby will refuse bottles since she was introduced to bottles only at 2 months. Im upset because I’ve tried every method to get her to hold her own bottle and tried bottle feed her but my baby just refuses to. And worst, I’m being shamed for breastfeeding her and giving her breast milk since she’s not growing. My mom has been telling me to throw away my breastmilk since it’s wasting space in the freezer and should just formula feed her. Im upset cos I don’t know what else to do. My mom has even forced my child to eat the baby’s biscuits and baby’s cerelac at 4 months and I’m not even sure if it’s right? And she’s sometimes feed my baby the food that she’s eating. Im exhausted. As much as I want to bottle feed my baby with formula, my baby really loves my breast and it’s the only thing that soothes her. She doesn’t even take pacifier :( what do I even do :(#advicepls #1stimemom #firstbaby #firstmom