Should I take epi?

i envied mommy that had epi. I wanted one bcos i am so anxious on my 1st birth. but my dilation happen way too fast. i only felt the back ache contractions and when i went to labour ward gas makes you feel high but u can still feel everythg that is happening. i was too anxious for my soul ahaha to be present during my 1st birth. that i refuse to open my eyes when baby is out. so you do you. every one birth story is different. yours might be really fast baby out that u cant feel a thing. hahaa. have a smooth delivery and congrats in adv!