naiiyak ako

Idk kung depression ba to nararamdaman ko, I always having thoughs of dying in anyform. Pag nagagalit at naiinis ako w/o anyreason sometimes or hindi ko matumbok yung reason, I always end up hurting myself physically hind ako masatisfy hanggang ndi ko nasasaktan sarili ko.. and sometimes nararamdaman ko walang kwenta na mabuhay... and then I saw my 1st born thingking walang magaalaga sa kanya. I cried and felt im stuck or something.. Adding that im pregnant.i want it. pero thingking na ako lang mag isa mag aalaga, maghihirap..ako lang nagreready... na parang ayuko na.