Got Pregnant But Not Yet Ready

Question

Deep ThoughtsIm graduate at tourism course 3 years ago, pero never pa ko nakasakay ng airplane at barko, never pa ko nakapag try ng malayuang travel. I got pregnant at the age of 23, with a responsible hubby(were not yet married) , now my son is 1 month old. Hndi ko alam bat nafefeel left out ako, nalulungkot ako yung feeling ko na may kulang sakin, yung feeling ko na hindi pa ko buo, yung hindi ko pa na a accomplished yung mga gusto Kong gawin sa life. Andami ko pang gustong ma experienced gusto Kong magLibot sa buong mundo without worrying expenses, maiahon sa utang mga magulang ko, but I got pregnant I admit Im not yet ready pero nilaban ko coz thats the right thing to do and I want to be a good and responsible mother, pero sa nafefeel ko ngayon I tried my best naman para alagaan baby ko but my hubby was better taking good care of him, I feel left out I doubt myself. I wasnt good enough to be a responsible mother. My hubby keeps telling na I have a Low IQ, walang silbi, Breastmilk lng tlga kailangan sakin ni baby kaya nya naman alagaan si baby on his own. Yes, I feel it too, hndi pa ko confident enough to take care of my son lalot na nung naiwan akong mag isa. I almost cried na feel siguro ni baby kaya iyak sya ng iyak hirap ko syang I comfort during that day and I remember my dreams and goals, this is not what I dream about. I want to be admire by a man, kahit gaano sya ka responsible sa family but its about on how he treated you, yung maboboost dapat ung confidence ko pag kasama sya instead na habang tumatagal I feel undervalued and unappreciated. Hirap pala ma buntis ng hindi ka ready ung hindi pa buo ung loob mo sa responsibilities. Yung andami mo pang hindi nagagawa sa buhay. Yung hndi mo man lang natupad ung pangarap mo sa magulang mo. Mag wowork abroad ako sana it was all planned but turns out na buntis ako, I didnt know if God changed my directions into something better but still I asked myself. Why it happened to me all of a sudden? Habambuhay nalang ba ko magiging under ng asawa ko dahil sya ang provider ko sa needs ko, hahayaan ko nalang na to be treated that way? I want to be something more... I want to feel special, yung eeffortan ako because he wants to do it, not because I pleased him to do it. Pero hndi ko alam Paano Mag uumpisa dhil iniisip ko lagi si baby, nawalan na ko ng confidence sa sarili ko, lots of insecurities, naiinggit ako sa mga kaybigan ko na they can do whatever they wanted to do.. Im not good enough ?

Anonymous · Accepted Answer

Cheer up sis.. wag k palamon sa mga negative thoughts we are capable.. and wag mo hayaan n itreat k NG less than u deserve. For sure madami k p magagawa wag mawalan pag asa sis.. alam mo sis iwasan mo mag Isa nandyan kc umaatake ung negative thoughts and mafefeel mo n hopeless ka and wla ka kwenta. But that's not true.. wag mo Po I give up ung dreams mo, gawin mo p Rin. Nasa marriage counseling nman na un n equal rights Ang wife at husband pag usapan niyo n lng pano arrangement if wla Kayo sino titingin sa Bata. Mas mawawala ung identity mo pag d mo ginawa ung mga pangarap mo pero with consideration n syempre with your family.

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