Depression & anxiety, need advise

Sa ngayon siguro mommy, ganyan mafifeel natin since mas mataas ang self-reliance and self-awareness natin during pregnancy. Eventually, sana mawala pag nakita at nahawakan na natin si baby. Share ko lang, I went through therapy for my BPD before I got pregnant. I have severe abandoment and anger issues. As in everyone around me had been affected. Some understood, some didn't. Mahirap kasi sa situation natin yung walang nakakaintindi sa pinagdadaanan natin. And honestly, yun yung nagpapalala ng nararamdaman natin. I was going through therapy sessions until I found out I was pregnant with my husband's child. We weren't in totally about pregnancy. It came as a surprise. We were going through marriage problems and I am going through my own problems. First few months I was in denial na pregnant pa ko. I didn't have myself checked. Aminado ako mali ako sa part na yun. I was going through something and I didn't have th strength to even eat or wash myself. My husband was also far away due to work. Until my MIL interfered. She was a nice person sa totoo lang but masyado siyang controlling. Kesyo bakit daw ako ganito. Bakit ko raw dinadamay yung bata sa tiyan ko (at this point 3 mos na tiyan ko). Bakit daw nagpapakalulong sa sarili kong incompetencies. Tama siya, napabayaan ko sarili ko. 2 years na kaming kasal ng asawa ko. Pero 3 years muna naging kami bago kami makasal. I was a completely different person then. I was confident. I felt enough. I was happy. Until iwanan kami ng tatay ko for another woman. Just then, I went completely 180. Yung dating ako, wala na. Burado na. I went through so much that I was physically, mentally and emotionally destroying people around me. Pero what stayed is my partners faithfullness to me. His dedication. Even his family was very invested in getting me back up. It took me a slap in the face to realize that I was being a danger to the child inside me. My MIL helped me. My mom. My siblings. Friends. My partner. Sabi nga ng friends ko, pangteleserye na yung buhay ko. Pwede na pangMMK. I am still having episodes. But not as much as in the past. Kumbaga in percentage, I am 60% okay. I am still doing my therapy sessions. I am eating better, sleeping better. I had my checkup at 4 mos and found out we're having a baby boy which both of our families are elated and overjoyed. I am almost 9 mos pregnant now. Soon makikita na namin si baby. What I want to tell you is, go on a cry, it's okay to feel insufficient. It's fine to be sad, angry, negative. But make sure to get help. Make sure to seek professional help. You can get through this and I am a living proof that you can definitely get through what you're going through. It's never too late for you. Never too late for you to realize how much you will get as a gift paglabas ng baby mo. And I wish you can feel what I am feeling right now.

first time mom po ba kayo? sorry na nadedepress kayo ngayon . sa Una po ganyan talaga Dahil may takot kayong nararamdaman or Hindi pa kayo ready . lahat ng Yan mawawala Pag nakita nyo na po si baby ☺️❤️ pray Lang po kayo palagi Kay GOD wag po ninyong saktan sarili nyo.. blessings po Yan mommy ☺️ virtual hug po sa Inyo .lakasan po ang loob 🥰❤️

Pray ka mommy.. I have Depression and Anxiety din.. At lumala eto nung nanganak ako nung feb at kinailangan ni baby maiwan sa Nicu dahil sa sepsis for 7days..til now meron pa rin ako Postpartum depression. Pakatatag ka mi at kumapit ka kay Lord.. Kaya ko mommy at kakayanin mo din para sa baby mo.. 🙏

Your body, your rules. No one should be allowed to dictate a woman on how she should treat her body. 🙂