Any mummies who choose not to breastfeed in KKH? Can share hw the experience is like?

I still remember the experience right after i gave birth and went change ward . nurses will ask if you want to breastfeed or not .. if no then they won't force you but also nag at the same time .. but because I said yes cause i want to experience new things right . so i have to videocall them on a tablet , and learn how to breastfeed baby . as I'm a first time mom i have no idea how to breastfeed a baby , the hand position must be correct way .. then when my newborn was sleeping they ask to wake her up hahahaha 🤣and try to latch .. soon after i say I cannot do it .. although it's a woman to woman talk showing my breast on the video call it's so weird ! also i have zero milk on first day leh until i got discharged then I had confinement period , 3-4 days later then my breast felt so pain like cannot even touch .. milk kept dripping but i scared so I never give baby as baby have jaundice ..