Hi , thanks for paying attention and replying to my concerns as it has been quite sometime since the last post. As there is a deadline for terminating before the risk gets higher at certain week, we (or rather I take the decision more) decided to terminate the pregnancy. A few days after the termination, I was really sad and broke down infront of hubby for not showing more concern as he was acting even more calm than me after the procedure. Although sad, but I did not regret the termination but rather, I regret more that I should have done birth control earlier to prevent it.
I understand that its important to be positive and hoping #2 will be neurotypical, etc. But the risk increased with #1 having it and it is a heart breaking journey full of uncertainties and require more support, but nevertheless we love him very much, but his diagnosis is something that we do not wish on anyone including our enemy. I have rule the pros and cons using my head instead heart because ultimately, I will be the one coping with them day in and out. For parents who have #1 being autistic and #2 being NT, chances are parents aren't aware their #1 have symptons or are already pregnant with their #2. Or you will realized usually the special needs child is the last child and ends at that. In one of the support groups I joined, a mum have suicidal thoughts.
I grateful for all of you sharing your experience and I respect your advices and point of view. We have since then done temporary birth control as recommended by the doctor. As in why we didn't do anything these years, my #1 still latches on me and I have taken for granted that I do not get pregnant easily.
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