Just an update... my hubby initially doesn't want the pregnancy and we have made this mutual agreement together. But suddenly at night after work, he told me he confirm wants the baby because he finds that this is the morally right thing to do, and will try to help as much as he can. As much as I wanted to support his decisions and keep that faith, but deep inside I have no strength to carry on this pregnancy. He doesn't help out with our current child when he was younger, never did housework, works on weekends and PH... If he helps this time, I dont even know if its out of obligation and i scared he regret. Since he is the sole breadwinner, he will be under tremendous stress too. On my side I don't know if I can handle 2 of them at all even though he finds me independent all along. I have put a lot of energy and patience on our son until i don't have any desire for other kids. Now as I am hanging around outside, I don't even feel anything when I see babies. I really don't wish to disappoint my hubby and son but my inner thoughts is really pushing hard to terminate the pregnancy. I wish to find some positives but the negatives really outweight it... imagine myself with totally no help and my son needs so much attention, not independent enough. Sigh...
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