Hi mommy, I felt the same way sa first born ko because iniwan din ako ng dad nya. What I did was to move away from the things that reminded me of him. It was svery difficult, pero I asked help from my friends to always keep me company sa bahay or pag lalabas, and nagpaka busy rin ako sa church activities noon. Ang pinaka nakatulong talaga ay prayer, kasi habang nandyan ka sa situation feeling mo wala na hope, pero I asked God to keep me afloat and to help me put my trust in Him, and I slowly did. I vowed not to fall in love again, pero after 2 years I met the one :) Now I have 4 other kids sa husband ko and we are very happy together.