hi mommy. I lost my newborn son last year po and I can say I understand where you're coming from. I've been there.
All I can say is, just let yourself feel all the emotions - anger, grief, sadness. It's okay not to be okay mommy. After I lost my baby in the hospital, I didn't want to bring him home. Gusto ko sya agad ipalibing pero we can't kasi gabi na at di na maasikaso. Ayoko kasi na mgkaroon pa ako mg memories with him sa bahay sa ganyan kalagayan but we didn't have a choice. I had sleepless night for a few weeks din at mas masakit makita si hubby na umiiyak din. Siguro don't look at his pictures muna kasi maalala mo lang lahat.
Ganyan po tlga. What you feel is normal. Afterall, you lost your child and no parent is prepared to lose a child.
It takes time to heal. Just don't rush yourself to feel okay when you know that you can't. As time goes by, you will feel better. Buti ka nga may isang baby ka pa.
Everything has a reason po. We may not understand it for now but soon we will. It's God's plan and that's for our own good din. Just trust him and feel His love. Your little warrior is in a better place now. I promise you. I know he's happy amd he wants you to do the same.
It's not easy but I know you will get through it. Feel free to cry when you feel like crying if it will make you feel better. Just know you're not alone. There are people who loves you and support you. God loves you too. Just make sure you always have someone to talk to and try mo na maglibang not to forget about your baby but it will really help you paunti unti na maka move on. Wag po magkulong sa kwarto.
Condolence po and stay strong mommy!
Magbasa pa
