Post Partum Depression

I lost my first baby last april 8 at 5 months..it was very sudden, no signs and no pain. Only then i came to realized the impact of my dream to be a mother then it was taken away from me just like that. Nakatulala ako , kusang tutulo ang luha and i keep on questioning myself why it had to happen. I would often take myself back to being pregnant with my tummy growing. I would reminisce the time when i was still with my boy. It was very painful then, and it is still very painful now. It is very depressing that it scares me to be alone dahil alam kong maninikip na nman ang dibdib ko kakaiyak. Tomorrow marks my baby’s first month in heaven pero walang nagbabago sa nrramdaman ko, sa Panginoon ako kumakapit, nagmamakaawa sa Kanya na ibalik nya skin ang anak ko kya nagpapagaling ako ngayon, gusto ko ihanda ang sarili ko para sa pagbabalik ng anak ko kapag niloob na ni Lord.