Mental Help. I am suicidal and afraid to hurt my kids

Hi. I'm a mom of two. I don't lnwo what to say anymore. I can't explain my situation. Everything is too overwhelming. I tried asking for help yet I'm just a drama queen para sa kanila. I wanted to die. I want to end my life. When I'm alone, i get intrusive thoughts on hurting my children. And I'm scared. #pleasehelp