Scared of birth and the life after

Im currently 36 weeks and i believe altho my edd is in 4 weeks time, i can still give birth anytime from now. However i cant help but to feel scared of giving birth. I know the pain will be beyond words. And im scared of the life after having a baby as i heard its very traumatising especially the first few months. 😭😭 My husband cant wait for the baby to arrive but i believe husbands wont really know what we will be going through. I do want the baby to come fast but i feel like also not ready for the heavy responsibility and commitment. If you get what i mean. How do i think positive and look at the brighter side 🫠 #FTM