Is teen pregnancy really that wrong? Can I not keep my child? Why do people shame young mothers?

Four years ago, I had an abortion because my husband felt that we were not emotionally nor financially ready to take care of another human life as I had gotten pregnant shortly after we got married. I really didn’t want to go through it, but my husband was adamant about it and got angry when I got emotional about it. He said that we had “made a mistake” and so we should “take responsibility” for it. By that he meant abortion. Till today, even though I have given birth to another child since then, I still think of the what-ifs and could-have-beens of that child that I aborted - and the guilt continues to eat me up. My heart aches for this child that I lost, and I wish I had given him/her the opportunity to live. I had no right to take that opportunity away. If I could go back and do it again, I would fight fight fight fight fight so much harder against my husband and insist on carrying the child and not aborting. I would tell my parents so that they can back me up against me husband. If anything, I think “taking responsibility” means carrying the child, and doing what it takes in one’s life to get ready to welcome him/her into the world with people who love him/her. It will be tough, but when you see the face of your child everyday all the hardship will be worth it. So please, don’t go through with the abortion, you will definitely regret the abortion, but you will never regret having the child. I promise you. Take care and stay strong!