I am starting work in 2 days and feeling abit emotional. baby is my #3 (last bb) I really dont feel like going back but yet I need to cos raising 3 children in Singapore is expensive. I dont want to miss her milestones...

See if you can change to a part time scheme or to work from home? If not, try to assure yourself that you will still be there for your children and your youngest will have the company of two elder siblings who will take good care of him/her.. You can ask your older children to help watch your baby and ask them how baby is growing.