Hi mama, it’s totally normal to feel this way. What I can advise is, try not to take everything on yourself at once. Do it one step at a time, don’t worry about things that are yet to happen.
First few months while trying to get used to another human being’s presence, lack of sleep and understanding your baby is gonna be hard but trust me mama, it’s all gonna get better after you got used to it.
The hardest thing about the first few months is actually not baby, but fighting sleep due to constant pumping for me (3 hourly). Just remember, if breastfeeding is taking a toll on you, it’s totally okay to formula feed. Don’t let anyone put you down just because you don’t give baby bm.
Get all the help you need, go for alone time with hubby if you want (except that you’ll probably miss baby when you’re out! 😂). Arguments are unavoidable because everyone’s handling is different so communication and tone is important. Voice out, don’t keep it in so your husband can understand. Most guys works on a “tell me and I’ll do it” switch, if you don’t tell them, they will “I don’t know” and that’s where another argument will come up.
You’ve got this! 💪🏻💪🏻😊
PS: Looking at your baby makes all the stress and worries go away saying is BS when you’re so sleep deprived 🤓.