Feel I’m a lousy mom

Didnt breastfeed, did pumping, supply not enough, newborn keep crying for milk, not sleeping well, now baby is 10 mo, I still feel so lousy at times. He keeps rubbing eyes n nose, i don’t know what’s wrong. Seems like I have made many wrong decisions eg not letting him have pacifier n teether when he was young, not sending him to ifc... etc