I understand where your feelings coming from, mahirap naman talaga kapag mawala yung anak mo despite of doing everything you can. Your feelings are valid.
I've lost my first born as well, and I am anxious about my rainbow baby right now. Just like you I just turned 24 weeks today, I have to take duphaston since I was 7 weeks pregnant twice a day, until I reach 32 weeks, then I just started Duvadilan nong 20 weeks, twice a day din until 35 weeks plus prenatal vitamins and milk. Because of trauma from previous baby, alam ko na ginawa namin ang lahat sa 1st baby, I still have fear and anxiety all the more with my rainbow baby, because of the efforts I my husband and I make to make this pregnancy reach to fullterm. How I cope with these fears and anxiety is knowing that I did all my very best, that God is up to something. I rest my fears and anxiety in the palm of God plus my husband, my OB and I's effort.
kaya mommy, kong nilalaban mo talaga mag fullterm si rainbow baby mo, never stop doing your best for your baby, prioritized you and your baby's need. Keep going kahit mahirap at may takot. Hindi maiwasan yung ma overwhelmed sa emotions because of past experience, pero kong alam mo naman na ginawa mo lahat, you are still the best mom. As much as possible mag anticipate din kayo sa arrival niya, mag anticipate kayo ng healthy baby, anticipate niyo ang good na mangyayari kasi kong isipin niyo most of the time yung bad things it will affect the baby. Remember po what you feel, your baby will also feel. You can feel naman the negative things Mommy kasi meron kang pinagdadaanan, but as much as possible try your best not to settle with and cling with those negative emotions. Praying for your health and your baby's health.
Magbasa pa
