if you are serious in providing the best for your baby, thats what you focus on. That means: keeping a steady job to afford the needs of baby; stay with your parents first because they can care and provide your child a stress-free environment. Living with your parents does not make you less of a mother, it makes you a practical mom. If the father of your child has not communicated with you all this time, even to check on your baby - you can only assume his priorities are not you and your baby. He has to completely understand and appreciate that now with a wife and child - YOU ARE HIS PRIORITY.