Domestic violence survivor

I'm a vawc-survivor, I suffered mental, emotional and financial abuse from my baby daddy. I'm now on my 33rd week of pregnancy and have not been able to have any kind of regular check-up yet aside from the 3 medicolegals I have undergone after filing for the case. Am still recovering from the abuse but kind of embarassed kasi laging surprised and angry mga tao sa OB-OPD nung nagtry ako magpacheck bat wala pa daw nagagawa. Nahihiya ako magexplain. Though feel ko okay si baby. Should I opt for a private 1st check up nlng kesa sa public na free? Or what are the things I should prepare po para di ako pagalitan sa ppntahan kong clinic just in case. #advicepls #2ndbaby33weeks