Sex life affected?
After our 1st born, our lives have greatly changed and our emotions as well. There are alot of ups and downs. Now my 1st born is 2 years old. My sex appetite seems to reduce greatly and often can't reach orgasm, just doing for the sake. We have been taking care of baby ourselves, my husband is a very hands on dad however our finance dipped greatly and I am the one paying for the house with cpf money that are from when I used to work. We both stopped paying insurance too. Husband pays for meals, utilities and his car. Groceries half half. I am living on money from my own savings but have since wiped out after I left my job to care for my boy 1 year ago..currently living on money from my parents. I am looking for a full time job again after disconnecting from the working society 1 year but honestly I am quite sian to go back to work as most of the companies and ppl i met are hypocrites and bad bosses. Few and far between will I meet good colleagues and boss. I am thinking of doing my own business but not sure where to start. Husband only do part time work now. He vented on me before by shouting say finance is the greatest problem however I already helped him by letting him use my cpf.. As a mom now I find the need to have to take care of a young toddler and hard to go back to full time job. My boy just started school 1 month ago and still resist school. Also my boy is sick and of course we did not let him go school for 1 week already. If I am working full time how do I take 1 week leave in this instance? Husband has always been a free lancer doing reno projects. However he does not have projects for 2 years already. Told him to do something else he only does part time work. Tired of talking already. I even keep dreaming of a new partner. I still love my husband, I want a 2nd kid too but I feel now when both of us are alone when kid is in school, we have nothing much to talk. We don't have dates anymore too after my 1st born. Also due to covid lockdown and restrictions, previously can't dine out much and also since covid can't travel. Wanted to do a family staycation but didn't happen in the end(as staycations also not cheap for our tight finance). We also can't leave our boy with our parents as he just only want to be with us. Recently I always can't reach orgasm when he foreplay and my clit hurts which makes me feel like crying inside as I can't reach orgasm. I always ended up says I don't want to have orgasm but actually I want just no mood and don't feel comfortable etc. What should I do?