post partum depression (mummy blues)

i feel like my newborn hates me. he was taken away right after my csection. no skin to skin as they had to check his blood sugar. i didnt get to meet him until day 2. husband was the one who first held him. up till now he fuss and cries whenever i change his diapers, feed hom or bathe him. it is very hard to soothe him, only my husband managed to calm him down whenever he cries. i came to a point where i will cry whenever he cries. i feel devastated. ive waited for him for so long, now that i got him i feel as though he hates me. he wouldnt latch on to me, my supply is ridiculously low even though im on supplements and power pumping i only get 10-20ml per boob. i feel scared and sad whenever im with my baby. im his mother and i shouldnt be feeling this way!

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Super Mum

Hugs, I know it feels very overwhelming and partly because your hormones are out of whack after going through huge changes. You're not alone and a lot of people go through this too. It doesn't seem obvious right now but your baby loves you, and soon once they're a bit older you will see it very clearly and it will make it all worth it. Your supply will slowly increase, if you can direct latch that's the best way to increase supply. Visit a lactation consultant if you have trouble latching. Don't be afraid to seek help. It will get much better very very soon!

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