Random thoughts. Anyone ever feel this way as me?

I came here wanting to say alot but i think it all boils down to this. I am sorry for the times i lost my patience on you little one. Through early morning i woke up and long day at work, i went home, yearning to hold you close to me and rock you to sleep. There are days, nights when i tried my best but it doesn’t seem to soothe you. I tried to carry you, rock you, cradle you, hold you close to my chest, undo your swaddle, check your diaper for so many times for soiled diaper, check for any wind, rub a little ointment on your belly + calves. But you still cry through the night, long and hard. Most of the times when i’ve exhaust all options, i’d cry along with you. I am still learning about you baby. Please bear with me as i go through motherhood with you. Others will butt in wanting to help, offering opinions on this and that and it makes me on the edge. But i hope you know truly just how much i love you.