April mummies….

normal birth on the 2nd April with no epidural, I had a high fever on 1st April I was feeling weak and all but I did not think tht much i thought it was js a normal fever tht on the morning I woke I start to feel some slight cramp when to the toilet to find out I was bleeding run to my mom room to asked is it time for labour/or smtg else… suddenly the contractions started stronger and I was still fever so I lay down for abt 30min and called ambulance to send me to kkh directly when taken away by the ambulance my temperature was at 39.6 then when in the labour room the nurse give me a covid test to found out I had covid so my husband was not allow to come in. And by the time I was at labour room I was 4cm dilated already. Then 7-8cm dilated I couldn’t take it already started to feel intense so I asked nurse to bring in my husband to give me support and they let without his support I think I would have died there literally… at 3+ Sophia finally came out from my stomach but her acidity lvl was too high so she was taken away to the speciality and I didn’t get to skin to skin and latch her… and the worse pain was literally getting stitches on your coochie they stitches me without giving me numbing injection or wtv it call and I was gg insane there………. And I thought my pain was over hell nah I had mastitis🥰 bcos of milk become clog and stuck inside my breast and cause infection. worse s*** ever literally the pain got me crying and I got postpartum depression bcos of my breast and I decided to make it stop bcos I was mentally and physically weak to even take care of Sophia I hated myself and I feel like a failure on tht time now I’m starting to do well and I’m adapting everything well